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[ Crowley is ready to pull away when Aziraphale freezes, tenses up beside him, because the last thing he wants is to make the angel feel awkward or uncomfortable, the last thing he wants is to scare off his best friend with the force of his own desire, pent up for millennia at this point.

But then those fingers move again, through his hair, against his scalp, and all thought of pulling away is gone. No, he’ll be staying right here, thankyouverymuch, for as long as Aziraphale wants to pet him.

He at least is able to regain enough control so he doesn’t make another embarrassing sound. Instead, he simply shudders a bit, trembles a little, fingers digging carefully into the fabric of Aziraphale’s clothes. ]

That’s... angel... [ His voice sounds rough to his own ears. ]

[At the first sign of trembling, Aziraphale rubs Crowley's back a little more firmly, a reassuring circle, before running his fingers through Crowley's hair once more. He lightly scratches at his scalp, turning his head just enough so that he can watch his reaction.]

It's all right, my dear. I'm not going anywhere.

[His voice is surprisingly smooth, far more steady than he feels. He'd like to hear that moan again, but more importantly, he wants Crowley to feel comfortable.]

[ That ‘my dear’, coupled with the continued petting makes him shiver again, and sigh. ]

‘S nice.

Don’t stop.

I won't.

[He settles against Crowley, his fingers threading through Crowley's hair. Sometimes he pauses to toy with a strand or two, or to scratch at his scalp, but he doesn't stop, and doesn't give any signs of stopping, simply holding Crowley close while he plays with his hair. He remembers all the styles that Crowley has worn it in over the millennia.]

It's beautiful.

[ If he was boneless before, as the petting continues he only drapes himself more languidly against Aziraphale. He might as well be purring, the way he leans into the touches, shivers, hums occasionally when those wonderful, angelic fingers find a particularly nice spot, near his ear or towards the back of his neck.

When the angel speaks again, he starts a bit, and makes a scoffing noise, a noise of complete and utter disbelief, but otherwise says nothing. Not one single part of him qualifies as “beautiful,” this, he knows to be objectively true. “Infernal,” maybe, possibly even “seductive” sometimes, but not “beautiful”. Beauty is reserved for things that haven’t been cast from the Almighty’s Grace. ]

[Each sound and shiver that Crowley makes, Aziraphale carefully notes what he's doing when it happens and commits it to memory. If he's allowed to do this again (and God, does he hope so), he wants to know exactly what to do to return Crowley to his pliant, languid state.

That scoff, though, that's not a sound he cares to hear in the midst of all those happy Crowley sounds.]

It is beautiful. I've always thought so.

[He shifts a little so he can look Crowley in the eyes -- well, sunglasses, anyway -- to show how serious he is.]

It's such a a vibrant color, and it always looks so soft, no matter what style you have it in. I've admired it for a long time. Why do you think I'm so eager to touch it now?

[ When he shifts to look at Crowley, the demon finally removes his sunglasses, miracling them away somewhere (or nowhere). He doesn’t like his own eyes, too ever-present a reminder of what he is, but inebriated like this, he doesn’t care quite as much - or maybe he just wants no barriers between him and Aziraphale. ]

‘M not the beautiful one here.

[ It’s Aziraphale. He’s radiant, and golden, and warm and soft and everything Crowley wants in the universe. ]

[Aziraphale takes a moment or two to simply stare into Crowley's eyes. It's not often that he gets to see them unobscured, which is a shame, as he finds them as beautiful as the rest of Crowley.

The implication of that statement -- that Crowley thinks Aziraphale is beautiful -- turn him a bit flustered. He'd wring his hands together, but they're already full of Crowley, so he has to settle for darting his gaze around before resettling it on Crowley's alluring yellow eyes.]

I wish you could see yourself as I do, my dear. You're extraordinary.

[ Crowley doesn’t even know what to do with such a compliment. How to react. Sure, his bosses Downstairs had sometimes given him commendations for good demonic job performance, but by and large, Hell doesn’t go in for saying such things about its denizens. A few times a human had been infatuated with him, but it’s been centuries - and no human he’s ever known would’ve been able to say something like that while looking him directly in the eye.

He fidgets a little, fingers skittering over the angel’s jacket randomly, like he’s not sure what to do with them, and he glances away, embarrassed. ]

Shut up.

[ That’s the only response he can come up with, and it has no bite to it. No sarcasm, no viciousness. It’s soft, uncertain, because while he’s uncomfortable with such unreserved praise, he also craves more, inexplicably. There’s something about Aziraphale earnestly complimenting him, in any way, that’s always been irresistible. He’s always had a good reason for resisting it in the past; now, he’s not sure he does. ]

[Aziraphale remains silent for a short time, unsure what to do with that deflection of praise. Many times he's tried to compliment Crowley, only to be brushed aside (or on one notable occasion, slammed against the wall). Maybe he'll have better luck this time? Whether because of the alcohol or the hair-petting, Crowley seems more open to it, even though he's looking away.]

No, I don't think I shall. I think I'd prefer to tell you how lovely you are instead.

[He keeps petting Crowley's hair while he speaks, gentle strokes along his hairline and around the back of his ear, knowing that will likely keep the demon in place, putting the 'just enough of a bastard' within him to good use.]

Not only your corporation, although you have a very fine one. A real head-turner. You've always turned mine, Crowley, in fact, you've made me rather dizzy over it, but it's because I've seen what's inside of you as well, and I find that just as beautiful.

I -

[ He’s... blushing? Crowley, ancient and ageless demon, serpent of Eden, tempter of humanity, rebelled against both God and Satan... is blushing all over while an angel tells him how beautiful he is?

Apparently that’s a thing that is happening now. He sputters a bit, unwilling to pull away but still uncertain how to take all this in. ]

‘S all for you. ‘M not good. Just want you around, all the time. Want you happy, and with me.

[ He blurts that out in a mumble, then finally meets the angel’s eyes again. ]

Dizzy? I make you dizzy?

[That blush is adorable. The angel is a bit pink himself, but the fact that Crowley remains cuddled up next to him emboldens him unexpectedly. He slides his hand from Crowley's hair and cups the side of his face instead, brushing a cheekbone with the pad of his thumb.]

You're in luck, dear. Because I want the same thing.

[He smiles into those yellow eyes, pushing past his own nerves to reply.]

Yes. Light-headed and giddy, like I've had an entire bottle of champagne.

Ngk.

[ His defenses are crumbling by the second, but still - does the angel even understand what he wants? ]

I really want to kiss you, and I’m not sure if I can stop myself much longer...

[Aziraphale's breath catches in his throat, his heart skipping a beat at the request. He unconsciously brings his face closer, a fraction of an inch, then pauses, a little worried glimmer appearing in his eyes. Despite feeling like he's just consumed that bottle of champagne, he's more or less sober. Crowley is not. Is this what he wants? Aziraphale wants to be sure.

Delicately, he brushes his thumb again over Crowley's cheek.]

You should sober up first, dear boy. At least a little.

[ Oh. Sober? Right. If he’s going to be turned down, he might as well be sober.

He shifts a bit, taking a moment to reset himself, sobering up with a faint groan as all the alcohol leaves his system and puts that nasty taste in the back of his mouth momentarily.

Finally, he meets Aziraphale’s eyes again, more clear-headed. ]

Okay. Can I - can we - I mean, I get it if you don’t want to -

[Aziraphale waits patiently for Crowley to sober up, wincing a little in sympathy. He knows it's not a pleasant experience. He should probably move away and give Crowley a little space to properly ask for that kiss (if he even still wants it), but he can't bring himself to do so.

Crowley looks at him, and his gaze drifts from the demon's clear eyes to those beguiling lips, the stuttered question leaving him just as stunned as before.

Crowley wants to kiss him!

He doesn't let the demon finish his sentence, instead leaning forward and pressing his lips to Crowley's. Only for a second, and then he pulls back an inch or two, his blush the same color as the Bordeaux.]

Ah. That is... yes?

[ Aziraphale kissed him.

His brain short-circuits a bit, and he blinks, taking him a moment to register everything that’s happening, even sober it’s a lot to take in.

And then he makes a helpless sort of sound and pulls the angel in for another kiss, this one longer, more demanding, possibly a little desperate. ]

[For a long, agonizing second, Aziraphale wonders if he made a misstep, but then Crowley is returning his kiss, and -- oh, it's a real kiss, one that he enthusiastically returns. He's already holding Crowley close, so he slips one hand behind the nape of his neck and cradles him there, his lips open and inviting.

When they part a second time, Aziraphale smiles, breathless, curling up against Crowley with no intention of letting him go.]

I suppose this is the 'other things' you mentioned?

[ Crowley’s own breath is shaky, despite the fact that he doesn’t need to breathe. He runs his fingers lightly down Aziraphale’s front, just touching the soft fabric of his waistcoat, savoring it for a moment. ]

Yeah, some of ‘em. [ He admits faintly, and frowns in thought. ]

Demons don’t love. Incapable of it, or supposed to be. But I dunno what else to call what I feel about... you. How I always want you close to me. How I worry about you getting into trouble. How I like doing things to make you smile. I know what lust is, I practically invented it, and I feel plenty of it for you, but there’s a lot more besides. I think it’s love, angel. Been thinking so for a long time.

[ Apparently sobering up loosened his tongue? Not sure how that works. Or maybe it was the kiss. ]

You... love me?

[There's far more to that confession, a lot to take in, but that's the part that the angel fixates on first. He gently brushes the hair on the back of Crowley's neck, his other hand finding Crowley's and holding on tight.]

That must be what you feel, because that's how I feel for you, and I love you, too.

Yeah?

[ Crowley looks down at their hands, almost curious, brushing his thumb lightly over Aziraphale's skin. ]

Not just how you love everything 'cause you're an angel?

[ He knows that's not it. He knows because none of the other angels love the way Aziraphale does. But he still can't quite believe this is happening. ]

[It's such a small point of contact, but Aziraphale shivers anyway, gaze falling to their joined hands.]

No, it's not like that at all. You mean everything to me, Crowley. More than a friend, more than a best friend. In fact...

[A small, almost secretive smile appears on his face. If the kiss didn't give him away, he might as well share the whole truth.]

Well, an angel isn't supposed to have amorous feelings... and certainly not for a demon. And yet, here we are.

And a demon's not supposed to, either, especially for an angel.

[ He drinks in that smile for a moment, then leans in to kiss him again, sweet as anything. ]

Good thing we're on our own side.

[Good thing that he and Crowley are already cuddled together on the couch, as Aziraphale can feel his knees turning weak at such a sweet kiss.]

Yes... good thing, indeed.

[It has always taken a bit of time for the profundity of a situation to catch up to the angel, but this time it hits him all at once. His smile blossoms to a look of pure joy and he leans back in to place a barrage of kisses all over Crowley's face, interspersed with i love you and you love me as if he can't believe it. He must be the happiest being in all of existence at the moment, and he can't stop showing it.]

[ Crowley wouldn’t try to stop the angel, even if he could. Aziraphale is practically radiant, and this perfect, radiant, beautiful creature is in his arms, being like this because of him. Because they finally admitted how they feel about each other, and Crowley knows he doesn’t deserve this but he’s going to take it anyway.

He’s grinning, arms going around Aziraphale’s middle to keep him close, hands running up and down his back gently. ]

I’m all yours, angel. Always have been.

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